what the world needs now....

the weekend has not exactly been exciting and filled with adventure,but i have realized a few things.i have some of the most amazing people in my life.people with good hearts who give me love and good conversation.i have sisters who are always there for me,that i love fiercely.i am very lucky to have found them.life moves so fast,it is impossible to make all the connections that are out there.i am lucky to have retained so many.

so anyway.i had a shit night on friday,i wasn't feeling well,so i had to cancel my plans to go out to the forrest with ll after i got off work,went home and stayed in my bathtub for the rest of the night.

by saturday morning i was feeling much better and started working of rearranging some of the furniture in my house and making more room,cleaning.etc.i got a call from my friend mark,said he needed his hair cut,and promised to come without that hideous wife of his.so i made plans and he came over and we talked for a while.then one of my sisters called to see if i wanted to do lunch with her while she didn't have any appointments,so she came over to talk to me while i cut mark's hair.i think i might have him convinced to let it grow out a bit.it used to be really long and i used to love playing with it.to be perfectly honest i miss him altogether.he seems so sad these days.he used to be my favorite partner for adventure seeking.these days he spends all his energy trying to please that gorgon that he married.eh,what can you do????

so after he left,me and boss went for lunch at the restaurant/microbrewery that her ex works at(we love living dangerously) and,thankfully,he was not working.boss has got a serious hate brewing for him at the moment,and i sometimes suspect that she is itching for a fight,not like a yelling match,more like a cathartic physical beatdown that includes and 8ball in a sock.lunch was passed pleasantly with no incident.the food was amazing good and we talked shit and laughed our asses off until she had to meet with a client.

so i drove out into the blazing afternoon to go grocery shopping at my favorite euro-style store.i like their efficient ways and their produce is always so nice and soooo cheap,what i didn't find there i found at the easyway produce stand.i love that place!i was practically dying of heat exhaustion from riding around in my little blast furnace.by the time i made it home i felt like i was going to pass out,so i sat in a cool bath until i stopped feeling woozy.

after the sun went down i hopped back into the furnace and rolled out to my friend simone's house,as she was having a little get together to celebrate having her house all to herself again.she is going thru a separation from another friend of mine,and she is doing really well,despite being a little gimpy from tripping over one of her many fabu cats.i got to see a couple of people that i hadn't seen in ages,whom i dearly love.there was alot of silliness as we sat around her magical butcher block table drinking port and laughing like drains.i have had so many good memories involving working around that table.we reconsecrated her house and listened to music until after midnite.

i was getting a little worn out from all the smoking and drinking,so i headed back into midtown(it was a nice drive) and i settled in with my a/c.after a little while boss showed back up,she was all perky and jacked from going to roller derby and having a stare down with the aforementioned ex.eventually my cat started making that horrible"c'mon,can we PLEASE go to bed now?"face and boss left me to pass out.

shortly after she left i got a call from one of my latenight phonecall buddies,mike.he's fucking hilarious. i always end up talking to him when i am supposed to be going to sleep,but i can't not answer.it is a silly decision,sleep or laugh....hmmmm?i think laughing is important,so i take it where i can.so i ended up talking to him til the wee hours.i have realized that i really love the shit out of mike.i love him because he is my friend,and there is absolutely NO sexual tension between us.in a co-ed friendship,that is rare,but it is what makes being friends work.alot of people say that men and women cannot be friends,but i think that this sitch proves that statement wrong.

so after all this i was lying in bed.curled up around a pillow with abdominal-ache from laughing so hard all day long.i thought...i have all these really beautiful people that i love so very much,but i almost never dial out on my phone.i will usually answer and go meet with people,but i never take the initiative.i thought about it a little more and decided at 5am that i was going to make an effort to spend time with all the people that i love.i am going to train myself to dial out.the only people that i ever call with any regularity are my core group of sisters.i am going to spread a little more love around,i mean,it's not like the world is gonna choke on the stuff.

you think i'm psycho,don't you mama????

work is making me want to kill people.the electricity went out for no reason during rollover and it's been a madhouse ever since.i am trying really hard not to get all postal.

the day was going so well before i came in here.i had been acting a fool moving things around my apartment.i figure if i am going to have to stay there for an indefinite amount of time,then i might as well get the place clean and arranged so that i can utilize the space better.i only broke one thing.it was a coup.there is still a long way to go,but i am getting there.i did,however,find a way to bruise my ass somehow,so sitting on it is not at all comfortable.

this week has been alright,except for work.last night i got to hang out with two of my ladies and talk crazy about everything that has been going on for the past few days.(alot has happened,apparently) i also got to see two of my favorite taurean men.i am beginning to think that they get more attractive with age.i also talked to the wife of the bar-owner about her ta-ta's magic powers in the shirt she was wearing.i also might have made someone's date a little squirmy,i am an asshole.after all that the ladies and i went back to my apartment and smoked and laughed and rolled around in my bed,which is always fun.i had really strange dreams again last night and i think that maybe i am just going through one of those periods where my imagination is really really fertile.
i just have to hang in there and keep on workin for the weekend.

i am the eye in the sky,looking at you-oooh-oooh,i can read your mind...

i have been looking at the satalite view of the earth.sometimes i get obsessed with it and decide to look at routes from my house to other places from the aerial view.i like to find my friend's houses and to spy on other parts of the united states.it will not let me spy very close to the ground in mongolia or in japan.it is likewise secretive when i try to spy on the middle east.i have a big alan parsons project moment when i do these things.i look to see where i have to go the next day,and i try to find the more densely populated parts of africa.all i do is wish that i had more zoom.i am very nosy when it comes to the satalite.

fortune smiles

it is officially july.it's only 8:45pm and it doesn't feel like deepfried hell outside.this is way too unusual.i am wondering if something is supremely off kilter.usually by this time in memphis you can still fry and egg on the sidewalk at midnite.it's been rather mild as of late.i keep thinking that there is something very nasty in store for us in august though.either that,or maybe we will actually have a real fall this year,not just the usual two weeks between running the a/c and turning on the heater.

life is good for the most part and i am looking forward to traveling a little this fall.i am starting to put a little more faith in ursula (my trusty volvo wagon) and i think i might take her on a little road trip.she get's good gas mileage and i am thinking of going somewhere that is off the beaten path and maybe staying in a hostel.i haven't done it in years,but i know what to expect,having done alot of hosteling in my time.i even lived at one for about three years.it was a great jumping off point for adventure.you just realize that the right oppertunity is right in front of you,so you grab up a seat in a going car,and throw in for gas.sometimes i miss that time of my life....just a little.it didn't have alot of the features that my life has now,but it was fun at the time.