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Last night I went out on a date with a man I had never seen. He seemed very old for his age. I went to his house and we talked and drank wine and I let him go down on me almost out of something akin to pity. I haven't got the words to explain what it felt like. I got off twice. I liked him as a person until after I left his bed. I talked to him on the phone the whole way home. He talks too much sex. I find it vulgar. I also know that I won't do it again, because he is dominant and says that he cannot be other than that. I have to admit that I am the same, being submissive does not come to me naturally. I cannot be something that is not in my nature. I almost feel bad for lying and telling him that he would hear from me again.

  \what i wouldn't give for a silent lover.....maybe that is why i choke them?