and with needles and thread you can plant them deep in your chest...

I am in love with this Low song right now.Some times I feel this way,like something inside my chest can see so much clearer than my eyes.I just have to follow my intuition and instincts and just wing it with that.Half the time I see it as a blessing.

Life lately has taken on an unfamiliar taste.The Fall has come in earnest and I am trying to thermo-assimilate and it's not easy.I have decided that I am going to compartmentalize my life again.Spending time with people one on one just fosters a deeper connection between people....and my squirrelfriends are fighting again.For a while there it was nice to have everyone all together again,with my newer sisters.But it's like jazz,always hit and miss,so I go back to putting people where I can deal with them best.I love so many people.I miss so many people,But finding people that you can really talk to is hard, like cold mornings.

The East coast seems to be eating the people that I love to talk to.I miss them in a way that I cannot even describe....and that is saying something,because (given the time) I can describe anything.I will see Korbet sometime this month when she comes to town.I am hoping that Patrik comes in for the holidays. The latest in this trend is my friend Charlie.I had originally thought he would be a good Gay Boyfriend facsimile since Patrik doesn't seem like he's gonna be coming back to Memphis any time soon.He just showed up on my radar one day and I found that I could talk to him as freely as I do my Geminis (though he missed that boat by a day) But, alas, He's been swept off to Baltimore.A shame really,but I understand, more than most, the importance of adventuring and traveling while you are young. So the hunt for another Gemini is underway.

Oh. I decided to do NaBloPoMo this year.I gotta start posting in this blog more and I decided that committing myself to the blogroll will make me do it.I am taking a suggestion from them,cause it seems the thing to do.

It ask what childhood toy you you still possess.I don't have any toys from childhood.I am not generally a holder-onto-of-things.But I do have one thing that came from my childhood.It's an antique rosary ring that belonged to my great grandmother that was given to me when I was little.I cannot really remember not having it.For years it was on a leather thong that I wrapped around my tarot cards.I have managed to keep up with it,which is an accomplishment with my gypsy past(I once moved 8 times in a year).Once it was lost in the coils of a radiator for almost two years. I keep it in a box on my altar now.I still use it for prayers from time to time,but they rarely come out as Ave Marias.That is the only thing that I have from my childhood.I didn't bring much when I moved here.

So I will go and light some candles for all saints and get on with my day.