In a slow strange mood tonight.Hard to explain.I am supposed to be getting ready to go out and I am having a hard time of it.I kinda want to be alone,but I am going to a benefit show.Exene Cervenka came across the country to play this show for my friend Raven.It's a benefit to raise money for her because she lost her house and her job and she is going thru chemo and radiation after having sx for breast cancer.I know that I haven't been the most supportive friend during all this.I told Raven repeatedly if she needed anything to call me and I would do my best to get it taken care of.However,she is a very proud creature,and we haven't been in close contact most of the time that this has been going on.I will be the first to admit that I have a tendency to withdraw emotionally in these kind of situations.There have been several hospitalizations for up to three weeks,because her body is barely hanging in there during chemo.There have been times when I thought she was a goner.I have had other people die on me this way,so I prepare myself by going cold.I cannot help it.I have lost so many people.I pray that she recovers and I WILL get myself out into the night to go to this event.I love her dearly.I want her to know.I don't know any other way to let her know.
I have been stuck off in my head for days now and I don't know how to come back up to the surface.I don't have it in me to be very social.I can fake it,but I am not really feeling it.
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