These days it seems I am caught constantly between the highs and lows.Most likely because two major planets are going direct right now and I feel like I am coming off hold.I don't know how else to explain it.
I had a wonderful night last night with my squirrels.I didn't feel like getting out.But once I got there and hung with Raven for a little while,I realized how much I have been missing her. She had a lot more energy than she sis the last time I saw her and I feel much more like she will make it.The show was actually really moving and it was a lovely thing to see so many people being so supportive.Exene was fucking amazing. Her music spoke to me hardcore and I hope to the gods that I will be that cool when I "grow up".She let me touch her guitar for good luck.Her smile is just infectious and I had the best time talking to her,mostly while I was getting her high in my car.I think I am also just so touched by the fact that she came to support Raven.They have known each other about 7 months.I have to say this, I think I have one my little friend crushes on her. I got to hang with so many of the people I really adore,and none of the ones who are giving me grief.I got to dance around with some of my favorite ladies, to tunes spit out of my favorite DJ in Memphis. I have renewed faith in the life force in a very precious person. So I am marking the night as a win.
Today I skinned my knee, so I feel like a seven year old.It was wet and slippery out and I wasn't paying attention. I was in good spirits until I got to work.I also made the mistake of trying to check up on one of my best friends while I was on my break.Turns out she really has gone round the bend, and is back on head meds, after all the struggle she went thru getting off of them. I can feel crazy radiating off of her thru the telephone. What is a girl to do. She is no longer accepting help from me. It seems as though the best thing would be to stand back, cause things are bound to get ugly soon. It fucking kills me.
I am ready for a sunny day. The sky has been leaking for days, and it has an effect on me after too many of them with no real amount of sunshine. Revelations have been coming hard and fast lately. I know that these are odd days, and that I should be paying more attention.
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